Saturday, December 31, 2011

Goodbye is always the hardest part.

Hye. Hye. Heyyo!
Well, 2011 is going to end soon! & it's been an awesome year to me! Alhamdulillah.
Been busy lately,too busy that I didn't have time for myself. But I had fun. I create the busy-ness so I don't have to feel the pain & it works :)
So 2011 bring me to the right people. I met someone new. Actually few new friends. & it makes me realize how mess I am. I haven't open my heart & I've been blocking my mind for such a period of time. Really. The last time I make new friend is I can't recall when. Until someone came to me & said "saffy, we haven't really get to know each other kan. It's been 3years since I know you by name only". Cruel Surabaya. It create a paranoid Saffy.
They say you don't fully lived until you live outside your comfort zone. But I think, living outside your comfort zone for too long is tiring & not good though. So,I make a move. I move out with my bestfriend. I feel more home! It's been so long since the last time I feel at ease. I just need more positivity! I don't want to elaborate about it just so nobody's get hurt,but as dramatic as it sound, I am more happier now :)
2011, At one point or another,it did changed me. A lot. May be not in a way that everyone will think I'm better, but I am happy with myself.
They say everything happens for a reason. You just have to agree & see for yourself how wonderful the reasons is.
Well, thanks for the memories 2011!
You're surely gonna be missed ♡

Sekian laporan dari kamar DM jaga dermatovenerology RSD Dr Soetomo, Surabaya :)

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Saturday, December 24, 2011

Beauty Conscious

Hye, Assalammualaikum, Hello.
since i'm in dermatology department, let's talk about beauty.
before we get straight to beauty, i'm going to share with you guys my idea of being beauty.
i started to use face soap since i'm in standard 5 (11 years old). i was so ngadengade ask my mum to wear face wash to feel beauty & the only soap my mummy gave me is this;
& i guess it works. i, among my friend didn't have that much pimples problem back then. but this isn't enough,  i want to be more whiter, so i curik2 buy this cream to go with this susu kambing; 

and yes, i'm satisfied. my sister & i have a lot of memory with fair & lovely because we were too young back then, going to shop ourselves & so shy that the shopkeeper would judge us =.=" so pegi kedai main tolak2 suruh tanya uncle tu ade jual "felopi" tak. hahah. memories.
i used both this product quite long, setia gila tak tukar. because the price is cheap & it works on me. until i'm in matriculation college year and until i come here to Surabaya i still use this.that is when i'm 18 years old. 7 years. wow! i did try another product like garnier, ponds, but my face become dry. so i stick with less chemical product like this two.

then, i change to this. what makes me change? because i can't get the maintenance in Surabaya. & since i started to wear foundation, & i think the cream already immune with my face, so i try this;
i used this until i don't feel the effect. so my friend suggest me to wear something more chemical effect. guess what? it works. i don't have the picture of the product i used, it called "cream India". it gives satisfaction. so konon2 dah cantikla. but i'm still worried because that product look illegal. i used 2 times only. thanks god. want to know why? i tell you why later.

then my other friend advice me to use this product. yes my name as the label. hahah. this is more safe than the cream india. but i think since the cream india already effected my face, so this product also not work =.="

then my sister suggest this; same product company, different work effect or so. i am satisfied. until as i state earlier, i can't get this product at Surabaya.
so, my last choice is this; & turns out this is the most safest cream & face wash i ever use =.=" i went to London Beauty Center that day meet the doctor & she prescribe me this, depends on my type of skin. i feel more mature >.<
that's my story of beauty. i didn't realize i changed my beauty product that much >.<
konon yg sekarang ni cantik dah lah? errr... krikk..

ok, what i want to discuss is the effect of using all these cream. Surprisingly, all this cream can lead to skin cancer. hah. how? especially the cream india i used. bought that from somewhere i don't know. the effect is so fast, i feel beauty. without realizing, if i use it regularly & overdose, i lost my skin melanin which is important to help protect my skin from UV light from the Sun.& if my skin lost the melanin & have no protector, that will easily lead to skin cancer. hah. scary tak? nak putih sangat kan >,< moral of the story is; never try any product without the doctor consultation. especially the one that haven't passed the sirim quality(in Malaysia).

now you realize how important to have that melanin that make your skin dark kan? habis takkan tak boleh putih pulak kan? here are the solution; not the BB cream actually, but the sunblock. My doctor suggest for SPF 30, but this BB cream is SPF 26. ok la kot. don't use more than SPF 30 except under your doctor advise. what's with this SPF(Skin Protector Factor)? it's not about how deep it protect your skin, it's about how long you need the cream to protect you from the Sun. & for your information, THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT CREAM OF THE DAY. especially to Asian girl like us,that expose to the sun everyday.
penjagaan muka memang paling penting. because as fake as "do not judge people by it's look" quotes, PEOPLE WILL JUDGE YOU FROM YOUR LOOK. truth hurt darling, but it's better that the best dressed lie.

ahahah. & i'm having exam in 4 days! 
I. desperately. need. inspiration.
but well, this is some of my exam question actually.hiks.
till i write again, 
have a long nice weekend reader!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Kebanggaan ayah & ibu :)

seriously you made us proud. 
& you make me homesick moreeeeee. teringat result PMR i. blur gila sebab kat sekolah baru, kawan tak ramai, jadi kemeriahan hanya dikongsi dengan keluarga je. rinduuu, mak, nak balik, nak carik result PMR balik nak happy balik macam dulu. everyting seems undercontrol atm.

well, i am happy for her because all this while it's me who pick & send her to school before i come here. i hantar pergi sekolah, dia pergi mekdi. paham tak perasaan masa tau budak ni betuah betul =.=" but when i tell mak, mak keep quite. she said it's her time, i am as naughty as that too dulu. fine.

mak always know the best thing to say & to make us not fight each other. lepastu bila semua berbaik suka tinggalkan mak =.=" it must be hard being the mother to all of us. 
& if today is Mother's day in Indonesia, fiza, you already gave mak the best present ever for giving us life :)

diorang cakap muka kitorang sama. & the fact that her height is about to be talled as mine is seriously unfair >..< duduk Surabaya ni i jadi pendek ke camna tah.

tapi sebenarnya jadi yang paling kecik best jugak. mudew remajew sentiasew :P

hahaa. rajennyalah i update belog lately kan? well, i miss home.
the fact that no wingman here double the sicknessss.
i need someone to talk to. not to get response or what, just someone who can hear me talk & talk about the same shit everyday without getting annoyed :(
wingman is so far. they already got an issue to deal with. it's unfair to still being spoil friend to them.
a week more saffy. we can do this! insyaAllah.

wtyl, XO

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Little Lina & misz Sarahh ♥♥♥

last month, daddy & mummy come visiting me here on November 23rd. it was little lina's birtday! daddy didn't realize she put a notes in daddy's laptop. until he saw this folder...
ahaha. was it obvious? of course la siapasiapa nampak pun memang dengan fearlessnya akan kelik jugak. & as always, she's writing her diary. she loves writing diary. like love, love. just give her diary as a present, you'll just put a smile on her face. but make sure it's a fancy one.memilih jugak >.<
so daddy was the first to read. & she write this on the first page! hahaha.
paham tak? paham tak? she knew her daddy & annasdosying siblings still gonna read it eventhough the title was "do not read" with "pleasee!!" followed. ok, we are annasdosyingly awesome :P

so it's her birthday that day, everyone is writing & posting a video to her wall. so did my sister Sarah, without feeling guilty, she post another video & said "lagi best kalau ade orang hantar ni!!" maksudnya? jahahahha.
she's turning 10. & still the baby of the family. i know it's unfair to still treating her like kids. being annasdosying to her like she's still 7 or 8 kan. she's so innocent that everytime i viewed her fb, i get carried away & homesickk :(

now look who's big enough to be on twitter? & the first tweet is dedicated to her most gorgeous sister :P

& today, it's my eldest sister birthday! rasa macam baru last year wish dia bday, ttiba bday dy lagi. well, for being annasdosying not replying any tweet or bbm, this is for you two.
 yes, of course this picture had story. hahah.this is how annasdosying my sibling is =.=" but hey, i survived! but if she read this, i'm screwed :P

 here the better picture. idk why this picture rosak. dah upload kali ke5 still cacat.=.="

i wish her a better year of 2012. please change your title to MRS. asap so i don't feel guilty if i want to get married anytime. takde susa2 nak langkah jendol ngeheee :P

All this making me homesick. mummy sending a picture of them on vacation last weekend.
i miss homeeeeeeeeee.i miss themmmmmmmmm.
oh bulan, jangan layan diriku lagi pabila aku mula homesickkkk.
so, have a great week everyone.
exhale hate, inhale loveeee;
One day you'll just be a memory for some people. Do your best to be a GOOD one.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

knock, knock, who's there?

2 post in a day! please be proud of me >.<
& the reason for that, is THIS!

yes, my kind of drug at the moment. referring to my post last 3 month, i am kindda addicted to this cake called RED VELVET! ohmyy, if you never taste it, you are a loser , i suggest you go & find one at nearer places. heh. the point is, IT'S FINALLY HERE! AT SURABAYA!!!
kalau orang pregnant mengidam, boleh la kau maafkan, tapi sebenarnya kalau medical student mengidam, kau kene bantu jugak. kesian dia nanti tak dapat nak fokus study, =.="

so, today, taraaaaaa. THIS CAKE COMES TO MY DOORSTEP!!!! :D :D :D

OH MY GOD, THIS CAKE IS AS DELICIOUS AS IT LOOKS!! cokelat dy memang marvellous. & for that, i thanked my friend. i am such a spoil friend i tell ya. that is why my friend is the best. macam kau tak payah ada boifren pun takpe sebab ada kawan macamni.

this made my day, or my week, perhaps ! :D
Dear Weekend, keep treating me niceeee~~*

p/s : hye you from Egypt, UK, & Netherlands. thanks for dropping by sometimes. do leave comments, i don't bite, i ate chocolates & Red Velvet :P
p/s : yang all over from Malaysia & Indonesia too, have a lovely weekend! :)


I love chocolates. Like love loveeeee ♡
I can go with chocolates smell all over my body.
Chocolate Spa, chocolate shampoo, chocolate soap, the cocoa lotion, chocolate perfume or even cocoa lip balm!
It makes me feel at ease. Amazing how chocolate can turns my smile upsidedown,no? by just the smell.
kalau makan or minum lagilah kan.

#2 if someone can make me feel the way chocolate does, I'm gonna marry him.

Lovely weekend y'all :)

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Tuesday, December 13, 2011

I can be tough, I can be strong.

so, the day have finally comes. they're leaving to Jombang.taking half of my life with them. hahah. ironic, but i am lost. knowing the fact there's no one to plan the weekend with. no place to crash when i want to escape from reality. this is the phase of life i want to escape :(

but it is unfair for me to be sad for them, no? i should let them have their own adventure experience. i do wish the best for them. but i still gonna miss them, especially when life being cruelly unfair to me. which lately it did. maybe i should take life less seriously. nobody's get out alive, anyway, no? but without them in Surabaya, i officially have no life.

argh, this feeling suckss :(
big time.
let's starts the countdown, 16 days to go~

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Menghapus Jejakmu

Jalan pikiranmu buat ku ragu, tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan.

Sunday, December 4, 2011


i do have problems with how to spell anest correcly >.< do i have to end it with anesthesiology or just anesthetic or anastesi. well, it's all the same. as confusing as how i want to spell anest correctly, that is how it confuse my life. ironic. hello, this is Surabaya. my life is more dramatic when i'm here.

i completed my anest lab on 3rd of december. it's already DECEMBER baby. how times flies. so far, this is the most enjoyable & relaxable lab i've been to. i admit, i'm not that patol in being a DM, but in anest, i am =.=" the only stase i created my schedule myself. & the best part is i never get caught. never. & please, to my junior if you read this, that's not something to be copy or proud of. pfftt. hahah.

but the shift was exhausted. really are! the stase started at 7am and end at 3pm! and we've been asked to on call at 3 stase from 5pm to 6.30am the next morning. the stase was at Operation Theatere, ICU, & resusitation. 3 shift at 3 stase. in approximately 3weeks. imagine how hectic that was. dealing with the worst condition of patients in hospital. scary but interesting.

i remembered back then when i'm on interview, they asked me " why do you want to be a doctor?" one of my answer is "saving people's life" & i really meant when i say it. the best part of being a doctor is saving the life of a critical patient. i won't say it's like a game, but that's how it feel like, not that i am game with people life. you know what i meant >.<
and if you must know, anaestesi teach us how to make people less suffer from pain, how to inject a sleeping dose & reanimation legally with a paper called inform consent. so nigga, don't you ever mess with me. i knew how to kill people legally. hahah.

#that moment when you successfully sucking blood from a coma patient for BGA test.
#that moment when you do the CPR & the patients pulse is back
#that muscle you get after bagging a patients for 3hours =.="
#that moment you watched real drama in front of your eyes but you have to control your own feeling.
#that moment when you have to annoy patient legally so she won't loss her conscious
#that feeling you got when you work with the handsome maher zen. eh? hahah.

all in all, anesthesi is so fun! that i got addicted to it & i almost lost everything i almost earned. i want to blame the schedule. or the weather. or maybe there's some anesthesi gas leak out of the Operation Theater. blame all i want as if it'll change anything. i knew it changed me.they say life is what happen while you busy making your excuses, well i say "life is what happen while you busy enjoying what you love most, & forget to take care of what you already had"

well, it's the memory i want to remember the rest of my life. even that's what drifting us away.
till the next post or pose,

Monday, November 28, 2011

Salam Maal Hijrah 1433!

hope i'm not that's been so freaking busy. with lots of drama. auh, Surabaya.
i wanna write about so many things, as always, & i guess that's just have to wait.

so, what's your new resolution?
mine? i haven't sort out yet. pathetic, but this is what medical life did to me.

but one thing for sure, i always want to be a better person.

better slave to Allah, the Almighty
better daughter to an awesome parents,
better sister to the lousy & anasdosying siblings,
better friends to my happy pills, wingmans & best buddies,
better girlfriends to ermm....let's put that on pause,

& a better doctor to all my patients :)


Monday, November 21, 2011

because good music can be so hard to find.

if my life is a music, this is the kind of what i want it to be.
it's amazing how music can make you feel better, isn't it?
can i just marry to a music instead? please please with cherry on top? >.<

or maybe,
#1 if someone can make me feel the way music does,
i'm going to marry him.

hikhik Good night Surabaya! :)

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Bila Masa Membina Jarak

Bila dia menjauh,
Bila masa membina jarak,
Dan jarak membina tembok.
Jangan pernah lupa bahawa kita pernah bertanya pada DIA tentang dia.
Jangan lupa bahawa kita pernah meminta DIA menjauhkan dia, bila dia bukan untuk kita.

Maka bila dia semakin jauh,
mungkin ini petunjuk dariNYA.
Belajarlah kembali menjalani hari dengan sendiri.
Belajarlah menerima dengan redha dan lapang dada.
Kerana aturan Allah lebih indah dan baik dari yang dijangka.

Jangan pernah lupa, semua hanya boleh berlaku dengan izin dan redhaNYA.
Maka bila bukan namanya yang tertulis dalam rencanaNYA,
Maka, biarlah DIA menjarakkan dia dari kita….

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Sunday, November 13, 2011

Karipap Surabaya

So, yesterday while i'm having an exam on Saturday, which is totally not cool at all, the wingman prepared karipap for our evening tea-time. i know, they're the best :D
& i brought some to my besties later at night when i go out with them. and they lavvit! they asked for a recipe, so here what i'm gonna share with you guys. macam best plak kongsi2 resepi. nak jadi dokter ke chef? ke nak jadi isteri mithali menantu pilihan? *blush* gahahah. #Kbye.

so, here are the recipe ; got it from here

Bahan-bahan ( dlm 35biji )
4 cawan tepung
2 sudu besar marjerin (panaskan bersama minyak)
1/2 cawan minyak (panaskan)
3/4 cawan air
1/2 sudu kecil garam

Untuk Inti:
1 tin sederhana sardin
2 biji kentang besar- dadu
1 labu bawang besar- dadu
2 ulas bawang putih- hiris halus/ketuk
1/2 inci halia- ketuk
2 sudu besar cili giling garam/gula secukup rasa
1 biji limau nipis

Untuk inti: tumis bawang besar, bawang putih, dan halia sampai naik bau masukkan cili giling dan tumis sampai pecah minyak masukkan sardin (sekali dgn sos dia) masukkan kentang dan air yg agak banyak (kene tunggu kentang empuk). sentiasa gaul2. jgn tinggal atas dapur, nnti hangus bahagian bawah. bila kentang dh empuk, perasakan garam n gula. masak sampai kuah kering. tutup api dn perah limau nipis..

Untuk doh: panaskan margerin dan minyak dlm periuk. tutup api. tengah panas2 tu, masukkan tepung dlm periuk td dan gaul guna garpu (jgn guna tangan, melecur nnti). dh sejuk siket, campur garam n air sedikit2. Uli sampai x melekat di tangan. sedia untuk digunakan. bila inti dh sejuk, blh la buat karipap =)

jengjengjeng. now here are the hardest part. memintal2 karipap =.=" memang loser ah, kalau buat tak boleh nak tunjuk kat mak mertua. tapi jangan risau, dunia sekarang banyak teknologi. ade je acuan untuk buat karipap, tapi kitorang klasik, pintal punya pintal, jadila begini:

ini sedap gilas! jangan persoal yang tampal2, yang panjang2, ade yg macam jambul smurf >.<. hahah. percobaan menjadi kreatif di Surabaya. jadi sila2, jemput makan. ingat nak tayang muka chef, tapi sejak kebelakangan ni diorang asik sumbat i jadi tembam bam bam, kita banned dulu gambar setakat ini. hoho.

till then, selamat mencoba! :)

Monday, November 7, 2011

Aidiladha 2011


kami & basikal pink. dan obviously not ours. ngee :D

FOODS! kambing, kambing, kambing, ayam, ikan masin. i need have MUST worried about my cholesterol now =.="

it was our first time trying to cook kambing. the chef was waggizo, i tlg masak lemang & nasi impit je. yee. i masak lemang beb, tapi lemanginstantnona je la. hahaha. i am so making the full use of technology :P

so, our aidiladha cerita was no fun at all. sangatlah tak perlu dibahas. 2nd day tak cuti, i start my new lab. Anestesiologi! & first day, i did have fun. entah of all medical stuff & studies the most interesting one, for me, is PPDG! (basic life support kot in english) i used to write about the first ABCD in my previous blog, i think. but too lazy to search & link the page. later if i have extra time. eh, wait i did have extra time these first 3 days of anaest. hahah. but that doesn't make me extra rajin anyway :P & also, that doesn't erase the fact that we going to have exam EVERY effing week! Good luck to me.

i bet everyone's having their raya moment. but despite everything that had happened, i did thankful i have them besides me :D as always, never gonna survived without them.
have a nice week everyone :)

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Dua dunia kita berbeza.

kecewa ke setiap hari duk stalk takde entry baru? hikhik. saya busylah mengenjoykan hidup yang tak seberapa ni. nextweek exam pulak. takdapat merepek banyak2. nah, layan vclip ni.

mohon doa ye kawankawan.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Ruang Sejahtera!

"Selamat Sejahtera Cikgu!" just remind me to my primary school phenomena. kindda miss the daily greet we did back then. i wonder, budak zaman sekarang still bagi salam kat cikgu lagi tak?
anyway, that's not what i want to write. let's get back to my young doctor business. macam dah lama gila terpesong dari cerita pasal young doctor life kan. well, let's blame him for few of my jiwangnesss post before :P i tried to not look too jiwang anyway. #flipselendang.

So, i already passed a month in my FIFTH YEAR OF MEDICAL STUDENT! *tepukla tangan sikit*
trust me, it's not easy being where i am right now, IF I WAS ABOUT TO BE GIVEN MILLIONS DOLLAR AMERICA TO START THIS MEDICAL YEAR OVER, MY ANSWER IS STILL NO!! except if the millions thousand come with the cute prince,i'll think about it :P
& i recently finished my 6th lab, psychiatry! thank god, i'm still mentally well =.=" & that leaves 9 labs to go. PLUS another week at psychiatry. ergh. psycho!

Ada apa dengan ruang sejahtera? (tukar mode bahasa okay. supaya efek dramatic lebih terasa #dasardramaqueen )

1. Kamar DM yang paling best! ok, actually tak pernah jaga ruangan lain2 lagi. tapi so far kamar DM jiwa paling best. tak yah susah2 balik mandi, & tidur lena gila (kalau takde pasien menjerit tibatiba =.=")

2. Jaga orang tak normal merupakan pengalaman yang best! purapura berani padahal kecut perut wey, tibatiba kene tampar ke, kene r* ke, tak boleh nak claim insurans weyh. r* tu empat huruf je, bukan yg lima huruf =.="

3. pasien jiwa manja! kalau tensi sorang, mesti semua dah panggil2, dok, habis ini saya yaa. sampai my pasien said " eh, ini dokter tensi aku aja, kamu panggil doktermu sana" =.=" hahahah. comel gila.tapi i memang slalu bagi alasan lah kan. bukan taknak tensi, tapi tak larat menjawab soalan.

4. & they care for each other! my pasien adalah salah seorang yg lama gila menginap kat situ. & dia lah yang selalu jaga pasien2 lain, bawakkan pergi toilet, tidurkan, sweet memang. tapi bila tibatiba dapat tau dia simpan pisau dalam poket, dia curik jaket ppds, sweet semua hilang. seram je tinggal >.<

5. & semalam ada sorang pasien masuk, heboh ruangan dia ajak orang solat jemaah, baca doa satu ruang dengar. eh kalau pasien jiwa jadi imam, sah ke solat? baru teringat. sebaik diorang tak paksa join =.="

6. dan dan hanya di ruang sejahtera anda boleh dibangunkan dengan bunyi gitar. sumpah sweeet bangat! hahaha.tapi kalau tibatiba ada yang cuba nak nyanyi. ehem. mmg spoil. hehs

all in all, it was an awesome experience! actually i was about to write a long post about my conversation with them, tapi memang tengah busy plus lagi best kalau figure out sendiri. i really demand a nice perfect weekend without jaga or homevisit or just give me a couple of day to rest at home! pffttt.

but what to do, i love my job, penat memang, but knowing i do something to put a smile on their face wipe away all the tiredness. the power of smile, agree?

till i write again,
take care! go enjoy your weekend.
XOxo ♥♥

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

life's been so stressful lately,

i think i deserved something positive like this song,

You believe in me so much
You turn me from nothing to a girl
Who's super-something

and for that, i thanked you.

Thursday, September 29, 2011


things always happen for a reason. i always believe that.
macam bila tibatiba kau dapat balik raya, kumpul2 semua family, especially family godang mak, i should really enjoy the company of everyone.yang tua sampai yang kecik.
that day, bila tak sempat nak balik kampung, abah carik jugak time walaupon tergesagesa.
Abah told me, "jomlah balik kampung, atuk dengan wo tu dah tua, bila2 masa ja Allah boleh jemput diorang"
Abah always know the right things to say & HE ALWAYS RIGHT.

today, Allah takes one of them from us.
beloved pak long, you will be missed.

p.s : teringat arwah wan :'(
p.s.s : alang2 malam Jumaat, jom sedekahkan yassin jugak.

Monday, September 19, 2011

lovely dovey red velvet! :)

Assalammualaikum! hye, hello!
if you don't know, my favourite cake of all time is red velvet! sukagilaaa since the first time i tried it. tapi kek red velvet ni mahal gilaaaa. sepotong harga dia adalah dalam rm15.60. di Indonesia lagila mahal nak jumpa, tak jual lansung =.=" heheee. so, that day, masa i balik, i kindda force my sisters to help me make my dreamcake come true. huu.

this is red velvet, bila dah hias. i preffer to make it as cupcakes so that tak hancur kalau nak bawak jauh2 sampai Surabaya nak bagi orang rasa kan. huu. jom kita intai resipi red velvet kitorang (intai jaree :P)

so, we follow this recipe from HZ's mum, auntie Nani Rostam. actually we bake 2 times. that cake agak hancuq tengah2, jadi untuk tetamu yang datang rumah lah. untuk relatives, we decide cupcakes it is. sama je actually. acuan je lain.

so, first of all mestilah mula dengan bismillahhirrahmannirrahim dulu. dengan izin-Nya barulah cake ni rasa sedap ke ape ke ape ke. heh. here are the recipe. tapi kitorang buat kek dia dulu, sebab mascarpone sangat susah nak carik.

-250gm cream cheese
-250gm mascarpone

Pukul kedua-duanya sampai kembang. Lepas tu masukkan
- 1 cawan gula icing (brand king) yang telah diayak.....
dan 1 sudu teh esen vanila.

Pukul lagi sampai sebati. Lepas tu masukkan
-300 ml non dairy whipping cream sedikit demi sedikit sama sebati.

Ok dah siap pun topping. Simpan dalam peti sejuk dan boleh teruskan membuat kek dia pulak..........

240ml susu cair
dicampur dengan 2 sudu teh cuka
(perap selama 10 minit dan campurkan 2 teh pewarna merah)
ketepikan dulu.....

Ayak bahan-bahan ini :-
250 tepung gandum
1 sudu teh baking powder
1/2 sudu teh garam halus
2 sudu makan cocoa powder
Dah ayak ketepikan dulu juga.....

Bancuhkan dua sudu teh cuka dengan 1 sudu teh soda bikarbonat.
Ketepikan dulu.

Pukul sampai kembang:-
150gm butter (saya gunakan butter lurpak)
100gm gula castor
200gm gula perang (brown sugar)
1 sudu teh esen vanila.

Lepas tu masukkan 2 biji telur satu demi satu. Pukul lagi sampai kembang.
Masukkan pula tepung yang dah ayak tadi berselang seli dengan bancuhan susu cair dan pewarna. Last sekali masukkan bancuhan cuka dan soda bikarbonat.

Bakar dalam oven yang dah dipanaskan selama 10 minit. Dengan suhu 160 darjah celcius selama lebih kurang 20 minit.

Angkat, sejukkan dan hias.

tadaaa~ da siap. senangkan? senang jeee. tryla buat. okay, maybe orang yang suka baking macam i memang suka la kan buat mende2 camni kalo rajen. huhu. sebelum kenal red velvet i rajen buat kek oren, tapi sekarang memang tengah addict red velvet, so tak buat kek oren. jom tengok pictures of the making of this red cake.

anak dara moden memang terus tengok resepi ikut laptop, kalo tibatiba tengah buat habis baterry ke hape menjerit. gahahah. and the respons from relative & friends are quite nice. baguslah, kalau sapa komen tak sedap memang nak kene diare 7 hari 7 malam. gahahah.apesal i tibatiba rajen hupdate pasal cake ni? sebab tadi khadatmox tanye. tibatiba teruja alang2 ade gamba, hee. & the chef are.......*drum roll*

baking is fun! & more fun when you bake them with the people you love.
cc to mr. right, awak kenela suke nak menyibuk tolong i buat kek eh.. eh? :P
aaaaaaaaa. mula homesick ;')
till then, selamat mencuba!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

complicatedly sweet

i learned that as i grow up, things ALWAYS get a little more complicated. like right now, i want to update about almost everything. the jombang story, my raya story, the bestfriends gathering, the new psychiatry department i just entered, & at the end, as complicated decision as i want to make, i always choose the easiest one. updating none of that :P

regarding my previous post on my previous blog, i admit that i always hate choices. i asked Allah to give me no choice so that i don't have to make decision, again, i wish for the easiest way =.=" . but lately, i don't know why, i feel like wanting to try to choose different path. yes, i am stubborn. maybe i love challenge in life, eventhough clearly i know, things will get ugly resulting my decision.but, you know what? people say that things will get ugly, before they get better. so, maybe, just maybe, i'm waiting & hoping for the better things later.

so, if you ask me right now, what's my decision? i will just smile & say " doa yah, moga2 jadi sesuatu :P" because darlin', it ain't easy. it's not like just saying "i do" or "no". there is still "or" in between. trust me, i'm happy, but it's not that easy. the consequences is lining up for me to pay attention to. lets be patient & never stop having faith, everysinglethings happen for a reason.

We question what we are
This I spent the best so far
And I miss you
When we're apart

I... I barely even know you
You rarely do this too
I don't usually talk to strangers
Until I met you

And this feeling shall last
This feeling shall last
We are proud to know to not to know
That we are strong enough to let it go
And this feeling shall last
This feeling shall last
I could be a thousand years apart
And you always have my heart
l ]
Well this has been nice
We'll meet again sometime
But I can't promise you
'Coz I'm flying away

When I'm (on) top of some building
With the lovely view
I'll think of you

It's a small world darling
And we are still young
We might be so far away
We might just meet again someday


Sunday, September 11, 2011

Hello Surabaya!

Speechless! (◦ˆ⌣ˆ◦)

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Friday, September 2, 2011

Shooting Stars.

I'm supposed to shoot for the moon.
If i missed, i'll be among the stars.
But i accidently shoot for the stars.
And it's so confusing which one did i shoot?

I'm leaving for Malaysia in few hours.
I'm supposed to be excitedgilaa!
but instead, i feel extremely tired.
Aaaaaaaaaa, i want to happily blame my imbalance hormone,
but who am i kidding.
this is it. weather i like it or not, it's happening.
& i, need have must finish what i started.

As if life gives me more choices :|

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Salam Aidilfitri & Salam Merdeka! :)

"Kapan ya kita bisa lebaran bareng kayak gini lagi?"
"Ga akan pernah kan?"
Instead of being sad, I feel awesome instead!
Thank you Allah for giving me chance to experience this! Living with them for 15days surely was a great experience that I couldn't trade with anything. & to ask me to do it again, also a big NO! Hehee :D

HAPPY HARI RAYA! Maaf Zahir Batin!
& dear Malaysians, HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!
Two INDEPENDENCE in a day! I feel blessed, & lucky Alhamdulillah ♡

p.s : gamba last tu paling sedih okay. on-call malam raya, lepastu balik penginapan kejap main bunga api =.=" pakai baju jaga. hahah.

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Sunday, August 14, 2011

14 Ramadhan 1432H

Assalammualaikum. Hye. Hello.
Harini nak hupdate pasal hape eh, sebab jiwa rasa kosong, baru start terhegeh nak hupdate belog panjangpanjang. kononkonon adela yang nak stalk baca dari mula sampai habis. takkesah, paling nanti i je yang baca balik =,=" (it's so depressing update from lappy that i can't use all the cuteannoying emoticon). ok, harini nak ceghita pasal Ramadhan saya. first of all, saya suka number empatbelas. jadi belum masuk setengah ramadhan kedua, dah semangat membara nak bagitawu setakat ni ape je yang dah dapat, ape lagi yg masih sempat diazam untuk kejar, sebelum berakhirnya bulan suci ni. paham tak ape i nak cakap?figure out yourself.

so, today i woke up at 8am. i always failed to spoil myself wake up late especially on weekend eventhough i slept at 3 last night. thanks for that late night 'transformer' movie, i still think watching transformer like watching Power Rangers but cool version. & Josh Duhamel saves the day! with that bumblebee yang kononkonon ade perasaan tu. sorry for the mix language, this post was supposed to be in Malay language. esh, tuka mood.

Jadi, harini i decided untuk packing!!! DOUBLE PACKING! to Jombang & the trip after Jombang :D :D :D i'll leave for Jombang on tuesday ;'( for the first time i'm not excited to leave Surabaya. aaaaa, masalah dalaman sungguh. i hate the drama & because we know where & how it'll end, it makes it harder :( lepas packing(tibatiba), i watched Gilmore Girl. already in season 4! cepat tak?ok tak. i want to download season 6, but takde kat torrent. sape taw link lain nak download, please let me know.desperate want to finished Gilmore Girl before Gossip Girl, Desperate housewives & adik beradik sume start new season. pfftt.

pagi & tengahari & petang saya tak dipenuhi dengan bersungguh sangat. sampailah bila dah janji dengan wingman nak carik makanan buka jam 430ptg.(Surabaya bukak pose jam 53optg) i don't know about you guys, but it always happened to me. dah pukul 350ptg la baru tibatiba rasa nak kemas bilik =,=" i am annoying, marry me niat sebenar mengkemas bilik adalah mencari miss owl!ok, dari hari Jumaat dah sedar miss owl hilang, tapi baru sempat nak geladah bilik =.="

ini miss owl. tak sedar bila dia lari terbang ke hape. last time i checked before pergi Murnajati rasanya masih disitu. it's so stressful she's new :'( tak sempat snap gamba dia yang paling cantik pun. so, siapa ada terjumpa boleh lah pulangkan balik eh. yang terjumpa kat kedai nak baik hati pulangkan balik pon memang ohsem la kan. sedihla!

so, alangalang geladah bilik, dimulakan dengan membersihkan almari. mana tawu miss owl tersepit tak jumpa jalan keluar =.=" ok, gamba dibawah adalah selepas disusun balik segala produk toknenek dia. amik, boleh buat quiz. soalan pertama, siapa dapat teka ada berapa banyak botol dalam gambar ini? soalan kedua dalam banyak2 botol ni yang mana ja yang digunakan? berapa lama..... okthxbye.
ni nama dia membazir. bila bulan pose setan dah kene ikat baru sedar mengucap banyak2 ishk. tapi actually taklah membazir sangat *ehem. banyak botol perfume lamalama ja. dah tinggal sikit sayang nak buang. baru perasan tukatuka perfume merupakan hobi sejak azali. tsk. tu belum produk cuci muka. pakai separuh, tuka yang lain. sebaik muka tak ikut tukatuka jugak =.=" ini baru botol, don't let me start on beg! tsk.

jadi, setelah beberapa ketika terjumpalah kalender meja. ribut every year complain indonesian sangat ssh nak dapatkan kalender meja la ape la, bila dah dapat, hisap madu buang sepah.apakah? anyway, this calender have a prove. it proves that my last cleaned up & tidy up the room was in APRIL! whew, time did fly fast. kan? mbahahahahahahah.(gelak anak dara sopan cover malu).
lepastu nak kemas beg plak. tapi tengok bag, tengok jam. esh, tak sempat. jadi pergila keluar makan buka lepastu balik cuba teka masih mood mengemas ke tak? awh, you know me too well. hahaha.

Bercerita menggunakan gambar adalah lebih menarik. i figured. tapi asik letak gamba barang jak, tuan barang rasa tergugat. jadi gambar hiasan dibawah memang memenuhi tema empat belas :') ini gamba before puasa, jadi sekarang dah tambah kurus *tibatiba.

so, it's been 5 days. & my ramadhan was boring since then. rindu nak baca quran. huhu. 2 days to go before i'm leaving. hati memberontak tuhan je yang tahu. pfftt.
ok, off now. kat Jombang nanti tengokla kalo rajen i hupdate. kalau malas terpaksala bagi korang rindu :P
take care. jom memaksimumkan hari2 terakhir Ramadhan.