Saturday, April 30, 2011

on - call

well, yesterday was my 3rd on-call since i entered ophthalmology. & the first time i really am awake the whole night & yes, i'm proud of myself. not that we had a lot of patients, but this one uncle who reached ophthalmology ER at 12 a.m!. they were supposed to treat him at surgery ER, but since the wound was really close to the eyes, they refer the patient to us. & so, the journey begins. the patient injured in the morning & he went to few hospital before he went to us. but apparently the previous two hospital treat him nothing! no x-ray, no blood test & worst, they didn't treat the wound. it could lead to an infection!

so my doctor plan a treatment. it was one o'clock at that moment. & the x-ray & blood test only came out about 2-3hours later! we wait & wait & steal a short nap but who am i kidding the patient was there waiting with us. funny thing is our PPDS(registra) also slept with us. kesian okayh. but thank god the PPDS was nice & so kind. we didn't feel pressure at all!
the wound sewing begin at almost 5am. my oncall should end at 7 am. but the PPDS looked at us & said "teganya kamu" haHAHA. & we repay the kindness by waiting there until the sewing was done. there were complication because it was more than 12 hours injury & the uncle keep on touching the wound! luckily they found us, if not, the wound could become infection.& the 'tindakan' end at 8.30 am!

at the end of the day(or should i said at the beginning of the brand new day) i learn something precious. ok, actually i learned a lot yesterday like how to fill in the 'resep', how to sterile the sewing stuff, how to fill in the correct AC. hahah. i am still new learner & been laughed at few times.(⌣_⌣"). anyway i learned to be a good doctor!
i really respect my ppds as how they treat us, how they treat the patients, eventhough it was as early in the morning.he can easily passed the patient to surgery back but instead, he tried his best to help. i don't know if i can put that up because i'm the one who easily get annoyed if i didn't get enough rest and by rest i meant sleep(capital letter) :P. But i'd love to learn to be that kind & good doctor! that's a promise to myself :D

Monday, April 25, 2011


hello & good morning! ♥
finally, today, i decide to not sleep after subuh, so i can do something useful, like updating mr. belog :') heheh. i took piriton last night & i slept for almost 9 hours! i can't give anymore excuses to still be on the bed =.="
anyway, i actually did have few unfinished & unpublished post, but i'm too lazy to edit & publish, so i create a new one. what's been up lovely readers? i had my mood boost up last weekend. short & nice visit from my happy pills :D

so, my room be filled with lots of love again. i feel bliss! & completely elated. never though i could define happiness again here, at surabaya. hahaah. seriously. i always love being busy in the busy hospital so i can feel nothing plus it brings me loser to the end of 2012!. but over the last weekend, i choose to enjoy myself with happy pills accompany with people who matter :D

we spend a day out at WBL. to the theme park, the zoo, & the goa! exhausted but i didn't really feel tired. hee. yeah, i'm always strong when she's around. but i hate the part where i still need to be at the hospital on saturday night! x_X but a job is a job. & i love my job. *psycho* hahaha. no, it's true. i kindda love it because i don't really have a lots of patient :D my senior said "don't say those word, it's bad luck, nanti lagi banyak pasien datang" but well, i don't really mind. i want to study more. but yeah. not too many lah kan. huu.

so, as usual. i supposed to upload few pics. but i'm too lazy to choose! omjayy. saffy!! hahahaha. so here are few. it describe how happy i am on the face. ngee xD

another blissful laughing & screaming at Wisata Bahari Lamongan, April, 2011! :D

superb pantai.

so long since the last time i enjoyed this icecream yogurt. & last saturday i had it with her ♥
she drop me off at the hospital! :D

so, the weekend's over. new week starts. she left me alone on my own turning the new pages of life.
i wish life treated me a little nicer, or at least they did.
well, let's just pray we all have a good nice week.
♥ ♥ ♥

Monday, April 18, 2011

elated! :)

Sarjana Kedokteran Batch 2007. minus 2 =.="

well, i'm so glad after all these years we went trough, we still the same old us.
just let the memories smile :)

Sunday, April 17, 2011

First lab done!

& I'm entering the next lab tomorrow! Auw, yes, straight without a day off (⌣_⌣") I really need vacation! & I know when & with who it would be great to spend with. *wink. Yes you, I know you smile while reading this :D

Anyway,my next lab is ophthalmology! Mari kita bermain mata (maksud tersirat). I don't know if I'm excited to do this or not, I just wish I can do it smoothly. Not like my forensic. Santai jak, & when it comes to exam & assignment, macam nak termuntah buat.& yes,my hand still hurt due to all the last minute assaigment I did in just one night! Phewww.

My life kindda exhausted. I'm as happy as I could be. But here & there when I think about what I wish didn't happened, it just kills me. I hate these same old boring drama. I don't hate them. I just hate the way they make me feel. & those littlest things, It's irritating. All these itch that I can't scratch just so that they're happy. Sometimes I just wish my life is only at the hospital. Yes, I love it when I'm on duty. I feel more peaceful. Even if that's meant I'm going to suffer in exhaustion. At least I don't whine too much.

I really need a break. A getaway . That's all.
& my empty room doesn't seems the best place for me to hide. Not anymore. I started to hate the voice's pollution. Enough said.

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Friday, April 15, 2011

I'm graduated! :)

The most beautiful things in this world is to see your parents smiling, and knowing that you're the reason behind that smile ♡

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Monday, April 11, 2011

In desperate need of break

I was so full of stress nowadays, as life getting more cruel by showing me the ugly truth right in front of my face. i feel like i want to break down & just cry my heart out like i used to, until i saw this note by "Heliza Helmi" on facebook.

"Terkadang kita terfikir :
Adakah kita bertemu dengan orang yang salah?
Teman sekerja yang tak 'ngam'?
Kawan - kawan sekolah atau universiti yang tidak boleh nak buat geng study?
Housemate yang menyakitkan hati (sebab tak pandai membasuh pinggan, bercakap menggunakan kata-kata yang pedas, dan sebagainya) ?
Ataupun kekasih yang tiba-tiba dirasakan tak serasi?
(atau mungkin juga adik beradik, keluarga yang kita tidak boleh fahami perangai mereka?)
((ingat, entry ini bukan hanya untuk cinta-cinta sahaja, okey?))
Kerana hakikatnya, kita akan bertemu dengan ramainya manusia yang menjengkelkan hati kita, dan sangat sukar untuk kita bersama dengan mereka.
Pelbagai ragam dan karenah manusia yang  dapat kita temui di dunia ini.
Kerana berlainannya manusia itu adalah untuk apa .....

 يَـٰٓأَيُّہَا ٱلنَّاسُ إِنَّا خَلَقۡنَـٰكُم مِّن ذَكَرٍ۬ وَأُنثَىٰ وَجَعَلۡنَـٰكُمۡ شُعُوبً۬ا وَقَبَآٮِٕلَ لِتَعَارَفُوٓاْ‌ۚ إِنَّ أَڪۡرَمَكُمۡ عِندَ ٱللَّهِ أَتۡقَٮٰكُمۡ‌ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ عَلِيمٌ خَبِيرٌ۬
"Hai manusia, sesungguhnya Kami menciptakan kamu dari seorang laki-laki dan seorang perempuan dan menjadikan kamu berbangsa-bangsa dan bersuku-suku supaya kamu saling kenal mengenal. Sesungguhnya orang yang paling mulia di antara kamu di sisi Allah ialah orang yang paling bertakwa di antara kamu. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Mengenal." - [Al Hujurat: 13]
Untuk lita'arafu..
Untuk berkenalan. Untuk mengetahui, memaknai manusia lain.
Untuk menyedari betapa beruntungnya kita, mahupun rendahnya kita berbanding manusia lain.
Untuk kita sering berlumba-lumba menggapai taqwa tanpa membeza-bezakan manusia lain.
Namun, tentu kita akan bertemu dengan manusia yang tidak serasi dengan kita serta berlainan segalanya.
Sehingga sekecil-kecil perbezaan kita menjadi besar dan dijadikan hujah untuk menjauhkan diri, apatah lagi terkadang sehingga memutuskan silaturrahim.
Walaupun diri kita dengan dia, satu aqidah, satu kefahaman dan satu cinta pada Allah..
Dan kita bertanya, mengapa diri kita dan dia, begitu jauh sekali?
Di situlah, kita kena sentiasa berusaha untuk mencari titik persamaan...
Kita takkan pernah bertemu dengan orang yang salah.
Kerana Allah telah menakdirkan setiap saat dan inci dalam kehidupan kita.
Setiap takdir itu merupakan satu ketetapan Allah buat kita, merupakan sesuatu yang terbaik buat kita.
Dan setiap manusia yang kita temui itu, tentu memberikan makna sesuatu pada kita.
Walaupun banyaknya kejengkelan hati kita pada dia.
Namun, tentu sebenarnya mereka yang 'salah' itu sendiri banyak mengajar kita: 'akan kekurangan diri kita sendiri.'
Bukankah seorang musuh itu terkadang lebih jujur daripada seorang sahabat sejati, yang dipetik dari kata-kata hikmah Arab.
Setiap jodoh dan pertemuan tentunya telah ditetapkan oleh Allah,
Untuk kita belajar sesuatu darinya.
Tak pernah kita bertemu dengan orang yang salah ... semua yang kita temui adalah stesen-stesen perhentian untuk mengutip hikmah, buat bekalan di dalam perjalanan.
Percayalah, kadang-kadang di awal pertemuan akan banyak berlaku perkelahian, salah faham dan ketidak seragaman.
Namun masa akan mengambil alih, memberi peluang makna kefahaman masuk ke dalam jiwa kita yang jernih.
Kerana kita pada hakikatnya, punya hati yang satu, matlamat yang satu, dan tentu cinta yang satu, hanya kepada Allah.
Ikatan hati manakah lagi yang paling kuat selain dari Allah?
Kerana itu, di setiap perselisihan, mahupun ke tidak serasian, kembalilah semula kepada apa yang akan dapat menyatukan kita.
Itulah dia Allah.
Kerana dihitung perbezaan-bezaan, memang akan semakin menjadikan hati kita jauh.
Namun, those does not matter, sebab Allah sahaja yang membinakan hati kita Insya-Allah.
And He Knows best.
Bersabar, dan teruslah berdoa.
Allah itu pasti menetapkan sesuatu yang terbaik buat kita, jika kita benar-benar yakin akan Dia.."

& i'm going to wipe away my tears, be more patient, keep having faith & keep on praying. insyaAllah everything happens for a reason.

"Kerana kita pada hakikatnya, punya hati yang satu, matlamat yang satu, dan tentu cinta yang satu, hanya kepada Allah"

p.s : besok I exam dan sekarang adalah sangat stress tingkat 4. sila doakan I banyak2 pliss. pfftt.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Hari Graduation saya!

I was busy tercovercover-kaw-engat-kaw-sorang-je-hawt! & my double chin showed. Damn (⌣_⌣")
Hello,it's a big screen,obviously at least half of the hall was looking at me! Jatuh saham! Jatuh saham!

P.s : luse ade exam forensik,tak terase da 4minggu berlalu! sbnanye panjang lg nk cerita, masa masih cemburu.puas I pujuk hahamelalutrepekdah. lenkali kita borak kayh, bye!

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Sunday, April 3, 2011

Today is the day...

When I want to scream my lungs & cry out loud. I need a break. 2 weeks without even a day off,I feel extremely exhausted! *pffttt.
Morning report, refarat, otopsy on monday & friday, exam 2 days after wisuda. Aaaaaaaaaaaa~
& yes, I don't know why everytime after I 'jaga' until late night, which makes me wear my lens for approximately 11hours, I got conjunctivitis !
Kalau pergi mall sampai besok pagi I pakai lens 24hours, xpernah nak kene infection. Haisshh. & so I force myself to start wearing spec. At least until wisuda!
& the picture describe how pissed off I am to wake up early everyday doing the same routine (⌣_⌣"). I need at least sunday-day-off! Tsk.

P.s : I even had to 'take leave' on wisuda-day & later I need to ganti. Damnn! Forgodsake it's graduation!

sekian laporan dari DM forensick dari kamar jenazah, forensic department.

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Friday, April 1, 2011


i feel like blogging. i do, but everytime, i always end up tumblr-ing. this is the phase when i'm too lazy to write down the thought, as a result, i reblogged from others =.=" i also too lazy to upload & share the picta here. huff.

this is how DM's life affect me so far;
♥ i become too lazy to do anything. especially on the net. the only thing i can't leave a day without is tumblr-ing. & few tweet.
♥ FAKEbook (read; facebook) kindda turn me off =.=" too many drama i guess & yes,i'm done feeling sorry. i need positivity. i'm about to deactivated, but i know my friends still need me there. so there goes few DM's life picta i uploaded whenever i want.
♥ i sleep a loot. like a lot, lloootttt! & it seems like i still didn't get enough >.<
♥ i listen to loud music to heal the tiredness almost everyday.
♥ i am soo lazy to even write this.
♥ & the good part is; i am too lazy for all of this so i can focus on what i'm doing! whoot.
♥ but well, i love the part where i get to know new people. i mean the senior. hahah. DM '06 & later, PPDS *insertthewidesmilewithlotsofwinktothisstatement* :P :P :P

i ♥ my life for what it created me. hehs. ok, start talking crapped because i want to end this post ASAP.
anyway, tomorrow i have to 'jaga' forensic lab & do the PL (pemeriksaan luar) if there's somebody die. it's sound weird when we all glad that someone died so we can do our job, while the family mourning because of it. tsk.

well, i really need to stop right here. he heee. till i write again. ta ta~