Sunday, July 31, 2011

Ahlan wa sahlan Ramadhan Al- Mubarak :)

Alhamdulillah Ramadhan yang kita tunggu tunggu nak sampai dah. die kat SILK HIGHWAY dah nuu, 5 minit nanti sampai lah. eh. kthxbye.
Semoga kita dapat meraih sebanyak2nya rahmat di bulan ramadhan ni :')


i'm leaving to Munarjati in 6hours. staying there for about a week.yet, i haven't pack anything & i'm updating mr.belog first >.< it's going to be a really quick one *promise*
Munarjati is a place located 2hours journey from Surabaya. since i'm in Public Health now, i'm going there to promote a good health to public. yes, that's what we do. bahasa Indonesianya "penyuluhan" or bahasa Melayunya "ceramah".
i feel kindda excited actually. afraid because this is my first time sleeping away from Surabaya. but most of all, excited. you don't know how much i need to go far far away from Surabaya. i really need to go AWAY from all these stress, all these people!. not that i hate them that much. it just i can't stand being in the same shitty feeling again & again. so dear god, you always know what's the best for me :)
but still, it's kindda sad not having my wingman around. thanks to bbm, i hope the coverage is okay :/
looking at the bright side i don't have to think about what to sahur & buka! officially the first time i'll be having sahur. hahah. ok, belum apaapa mesti nak highlight makan jugak =.="

"They say best friends are hard to find. Well, that's because the best ones are already mine :)"

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Rambling Sunday.

"aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna, ku tak luput dari dosa - #nowplaying "

i wish
i knew
in a

p.s : "SORRY" seems to be the hardest word. Always.
p.s.s : but hey, let's start with Ramadhan Al-mubarak. InsyaAllah :)

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

birthday boy! ♡

him was on 15th of july. i have to admit he's grown up becoming one handsome boy. haha. sebaik adik haku, kalo tak,dah mintak nombor (liar.i never start first. even i'm dying to say hello to.whatever :P)
anyway, he got girlfriend though. the first thing he did when he come home on his birthday is going out dating his girl. YOU DID GREW UP BECOMING ONE HANDSOME GENTLEMAN!
enough talking about you. it's not like you gonna buy me flight ticket pon. buwekkkk :P

& another  birthday boy for today, is my daddy! weeee. the sister says it's cute to call daddy "birthday boy" i miss home so much that i wrote this post. my daddy is the most awesomeness gentleman that try his very best to keep us in a good life.well, abah, i think you did! to thank you for everything you did & still doing, i knew my whole life won't be enough. we love you :)
ok, abah boleh cakap banyakbanyak because the posibility for me getting flight ticket from abah is 110%! heee :D

what's with me & this flight ticket issue? teng, teng. teng. no lah, i'm not coming home for raya :( , in fact i need to spend my first & second day of raya at jombang, away from family & the wingman! it's unfair but i always remember daddy told me ;
"kadangkadang benda yang paling kita tak suka tulah yang paling banyak membantu kita menghadapi masa depan"
abah is one fabulous lecture & yes, i always proud with him. persoalannya would i make him proud one day? let's make that a promise.ok?

p.s : PUBLIC HEALTH MAKE ME BECOMING WONDER WOMEN! seriously. i got immune with all the drama. & i've become feelingless. i don't know if it's a good thing or not though. i'm tired stressing over the same old things. that's explain.


Sunday, July 17, 2011

TSM Charity Dinner.

standing here, 4 years ago. with the same smile. i thought i moved on. i did. but everything seems blurry when i saw you. i though i'm strong enough, but i still feel the pain. i really was. well life didn't gives us that much choices, kan?

p.s : you really lost me the day you didn't look back.

Monday, July 11, 2011

life goes on

So, I'm done Surgery. It didn't end quite well. It was so frustrated that I almost lose faith. I am however try to lower my expectation. As if miracles really want to make me happy later, we'll see.

And I just started IKM(public health). Another 2 boring month (⌣_⌣"). The first week we have to attend lecture at campus. I somehow miss the campus environment. But seriously, the lecture are effing boring & everyone's asleep. I swear!
The rest 7weeks I will be send off to few PUSKESMAS which in Malaysia known as Klinik Kesihatan Kerajaan. I hope it'll be interesting. New environment. Fasting & celebrating raya at new place.*sigh. Again,I try to lower my expectation.

You know at times I feel like I'm dreaming. Being a doctor is my dream job. Having patients come to you complaining whatsoever that bothering them. Even it is a small matter. So far,I can controlled my emotion while dealing with them which I think my biggest achievement! True story. Hahah.

I try not to complain about how pathetic my life becomes but it is. 2 month in surgery already make me lifeless! & when I officially done with it, my wingman just started surgery which is by definition I am still don't have a life! (⌣_⌣")

But it doesn't matter. Surabaya has nothing to offer. Not to me :| But somepart somewhere I do hope I'll be enjoying Surabaya again. I miss those good old days. But people change. Things did too. We grow up. And along the way we lost what we don't deserved to make room for better things. And well, I hope I was right :(

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Monday, July 4, 2011

I could really use a wish right now (˘ʃƪ˘)

Kulari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku
kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
sepi, sepi dan sendiri
aku benci

Aku ingin bingar
aku mau di pasar
bosan aku dengan penat
dan enyah saja kau pekat
seperti berjelaga
jika ku sendiri

Pecahkan saja gelasnya
biar ramai
biar mengaduh sampai gaduh

Ah...ada malaikat menyulam
jaring laba-laba belang
di tembok keraton putih
kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya
biar terdera

Atau aku harus lari ke hutan
lalu belok ke pantai .........

i never really into poems. but this one has been my favourite since... forever!
saya stress. sangat. & this poem somehow told me something.
ok, back to work.
please pray for me exam on thursday :(