Monday, April 30, 2012

Summer Paradise

My heart is sinking
As I'm lifting up
Above the clouds away from you
And I can't believe I'm leaving
Oh I don't kno-kno-know what I'm gonna do

But someday
I will find my way back
To where your name
Is written in the sand


Cause I remember every sunset
I remember every word you said
We were never gonna say goodbye
Singing la-da-da-da-da

Tell me how to get back to
Back to summer paradise with you
And I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh
I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh

My soul is broken
Streets are frozen
I can't stop these feelings melting through
And I'd give away a thousand days, oh
Just to have another one with you

Well real life can wait
(it can wait)
We're crashing like waves
(uh-huh)
We're playing in the sand
(me and you)
Holding your hand

Cause I remember every sunset
I remember every word you said
We were never gonna say goodbye
Singing la-da-da-da-da

Tell me how to get back to
Back to summer paradise with you
And I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh
I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh

Yeah I remember sunny mornings
And summer evenings
Now you're right next to me
And I am freezing
Was it real?
Oh baby, tell me, was I dreaming?
How can you show me paradise,
When I'm leaving?

Now my heartbeat is sinking
Hope's shrinking
When I try to speak no words
Lip-syncing
Hope this is not just wishful thinking
Tell me that you care
And I'll be there in a heartbeat

Someday
I will find my way back
To where your name
Is written in the sand


Yeah, yeah, yeah, let's go

Cause I remember every sunset
I remember every word you said
We were never gonna say goodbye
Singing la-da-da-da-da

Tell me how to get back to
Back to summer paradise with you
And I'll be there in a heartbeat

I remember when we first kissed
How I didn't wanna leave your lips
And how I've never ever felt so high
Singing La-da-da-da-da

Tell me how to get back to
Back to summer paradise with you
And I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh
I'll be there in a heartbeat
(summer paradise)
Oh-oh
I'll be there in a heartbeat


xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


Again, i fall for this beautiful song! i swear if music is a guy, i'm gonna marry him!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Bubbly Sunday

HELLO BELOG! it feels so long. & yes, i miss you deeply. not you lah. i miss writing & babbling about my dramatic life here. heh.

So, i've done 8 weeks of pediatric! i still feel like dreaming. What they told you about pediatric was true. It was super duper tiring, exhausted & weary! The first 6 weeks of pediatric was fast. Maybe because i have shift on weekdays, so i don't get to even think about killing the time. My exam's turn was on the last day of pediatric. So, i used the whole last 2 weeks in pediatric worrying about who my examiner gonna be. It was torturing. to walk everyday, knowing some of your friend get the goldenheart(baik hati) examiner & some get the scary one. And on my exam day, I almost gave up. I did. I never felt so down on my exam day :| luckily there's my sunshine & my wingman around. For that, i always thanked Allah for every person He send to me to walk through this hard life ♥ alhamdulillah :)

I love kids! I do. I think kids are the most beautifully honest creature on earth. Until they become sick, "rewel" & extra mengada. hahah. that feeling when you want to help but they crying so loud like you're doing something to hurt them. cubit kang. hahah. but it was one ohsem memory. dealing with kids, babies & extra conscious parents. not to forget, THE PARENTS ARE AT MY AGE! some are younger. that, make me feel how I, at this age, still don't achieved anything in life. it was one horrible feeling :'(

You know what scares me? doing the same things that i don't like, everyday, for the rest of mylife. since the first beginning i choose to be a doctor, that was the most scariest feeling i want to avoid. i try so hard to love what i do. ok, maybe i don't try hard enough, but i want to love what i do. right now & in the future. oh, i'm talking about the job, btw. just to make it clear before you start to think of other things -oo-

So, if you ask me, do I like what I do now, the same thing I'm gonna do in the future? i would definitely smile & says "sometimes". yes. SOMETIMES. it was pathetic. but i'm getting there. maybe because i value my sleep much, i hate that i started to lost it SOMETIMES now. hahah. and besides the handsome young ppds, i think what excite me doing my job is one great team. yes. A great medical team is what keep me smiling the whole shift even though it was tiring. & of course the feeling of appreciation. it was small matter, but having a patients come to you saying "thanks, doctor" was the ohsem feeling ever. but maybe, that, applies to those yg ikhlas jelah. especially those little creature :D did i mention, i love kids! :D kalau berterima kasih sampai mintak bbm number tu memang tak ah i rasa ohsem sangat. kan.

"Bekerjalah dengan ikhlas, agar menjadi bagian dari Ibadah" well, my 8weeks of pediatric, this is what it teaches me. I try to apply to my shift. I wouldn't want to say I was ikhlas enough, but I tried :) & I hope in the future, this is what it's going to be. Pray for me, okayh?

I think, that's all for now. gonna enjoy the rest of Sunday, before entering new department, Neurology, tomorrow. FEW DAYS LEFT to fight this battle! still feel like dreaming, but i believe this is dream comes true; my life :)

for that, again & again, i thanked Allah, Alhamdulillah ♥ 


ok, now time for honesty, do we look alike? hahah. ko takpayah jawab pun xpe. bye!

Monday, April 9, 2012

I love you :)

La la
La la la la
La la
La la la
I like your smile
I like your vibe
I like your style
But that's not why I love you

And I, I like the way
You're such a star
But that's not why I love you
Hey
Do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel, too?
Do you need, do you need me?
Do you need me?

You're so beautiful
But that's not why I love you
I'm not sure you know
That the reason I love you is you
Being you
Just you
Yeah the reason I love you is all that we've been through
And that's why I love you

La la
La la la la
La la
La la la
I like the way you misbehave
When we get wasted
But that's not why I love you
And how you keep your cool
When I am complicated
But that's not why I love you

Hey
Do you feel, do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel, too?
Do you need, do you need me?

Do you need me?

Yeah - Oh.
Oh.

Even though we didn't make it through
I am always here for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah

La la
La la la la (oh oh)
La la
La la la (That's why I love you)

Having someone sending this song to you enough to collect all the positive energy & push away those negativity.
It remind me how blessed I am been given true friend to walk thru this difficulties.
So, mr. Boifriend need to be super duper extra hard to be more than the bestest friend of mine. Kiki :D