Friday, August 23, 2013

Periuk Nasi

Sebab saya selalu percaya dengan rezeki tuhan. Alhamdulillah ♡
Tak kiralah sepuluh orang duk hasut cakap jangan apply hospital putrajaya sebab penuhlah, susah nak dapatlah, kalau rezeki kat sana, tak apply pun dapat.
Kalaupun bukan rezeki yang dapat, mungkin jodoh?LOL.

Sunday, August 11, 2013


Yang nak dirasai,
Yang nak dilalui,
Yang nak dikenangkan,
Yang nak dicepatkan,
Yang nak dilupakan,
Yang nak diciptakan,
Terlalu banyak.

Ternyata sabar menunggu itu terlalu mudah diucapkan dari dilakukan.

untuk terlalu banyak salah, silap, kurang hajar, dengan sengaja atau tidak, mohon maaf zahir & batin.

Kosong-kosong okayy.

Monday, July 22, 2013

Running Crush

Happy Ramadhan Kareem Awak!
macam lambat tapi lebih baik dari tak ucap lansung kan. hehs.

Guess what? I'm still jobless!
It's been freaking 6 month i've enjoying home. madness!
I gain few kilos and trying hard to lose more. tsk.
I spend most of my time catching up on Running man. It was from episode 140 when I first involved seriously. I start watch from episode 1, and now already on episode 133!
before the fasting month I watch about 5 to 6 episode a day, everyday. It feels like something missing if I can't watch Kwang soo for a day. hahah.
In fasting month, I only watched an episode a day. ok, sometimes two. hihi.

Anddd another mission is Candy crush! ha ha haa.
It's sucks to stuck on something that you can't finish. ishk. I was on level 364/365 when they upgrade and add more 100++ levels. damnit. when will I ever get over you candy pfftt.
The reason for my updating is also related to candy crush. lol.
after 364 levels, I only realized it's easier to play on the laptop rather than phone. but it's hard to cheat on life while playing on the laptop. hahah. so here i am, killing the time, waiting for the life i deserves (only people who play candy crush would understand this merepeksness)

My Kwang Soo :D
he got the height and the humors! two most important criteria I'd search in man. hew hew.

Frankly, I'm not into korean drama and kpop star and all, but runningman is an exception. teruk betul penangan giraffe ni. They're coming to Malaysia in September. I soooo want to go to their fan meeting. but the tix is way too expensive for a jobless like me *nangis*

Jadi, sempena bulan yang mulia ni saya nak menyusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf diatas segala ketelanjuran bahasa, kata, mahupun terkasar bergurau.
eloklah kiranya kita buat2 lupa dan memulakan hidup baru. eh? hehee.
Spread lovess, kill hate.
Let's gain more & more rewards in this holy month :)
Assalammualaikum ♥

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Obssesive Compulsive

Bermula di Facebook
Kau tegur ku dulu 
Tak tahu malu
Tak kuasa nak layan
Aku buat tak tahu

Kau terus cuba dan mencuba
Sehingga ku jatuh cinta
Gatalnya dirimu
Membuatku terjatuh

Bila kita mula mengada
Kita selalu keluar sama
Borak panjang panjang
Makan dan tengok wayang

Sikit sikit aku merajuk
Kau selalu sabar pujuk
Tapi sebenarnya
Ku cuma nak uji saja

Let me tell you that I love you
And I never wanna wrong you
Take my hand baby
Come go through with me
Let me tell you that I miss you
And I never wanna lose you
You're my heart baby
My life is incomplete without you

Dalam pada ku gembira
Kadang kala sedih juga
Kau sudah berpunya
Tak mungkin jadi milikku selamanya


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Sunday, June 2, 2013


It's half of the year already!!
And I'm proudly already tick half of my resolutions checklist ;) Alhamdulillah ♡
1. I'm graduated!
2. I'm home for good :)
3. I get my vision clearer
4. I gain few kilos! Excess actually -______-

I get massive question on 'when is your turn?' Or 'you looked like you're gonna be next'.
I confidently will smile and said
'In sha Allah :). Doa2kan eh'
And come home regretting it. Darn.
I hope no one taking my answer seriously.
But your dua won't hurt ;)

P/s : kalau awak masih ingat, saya masih sudi.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Second chance

I spend almost three-four-five days to write this post. So i hope this note will at least, a little, give you guys an information you asked for.

It was last saturday, I went to Optimax Eyes Specialist Centre, Sunway. And yes, for doing lasek/lasik to my eyes. Why Optimax? Because Optimax once open their branch in HUKM, which suggested by my dad's friend. My elder sister had her lasik in 2009. But now, Optimax is no more in hukm. They open few branch all over Malaysia, that you can come as they said, wherever you're comfortable with.

I had my first check up at Optimax TTDI. The first check up is to measure your cornea thickness, your exact min(power), your dazzle(silau), your anterior chamber (BMD), basically the thing I used to do while I was in Ophthalmology department! now I know how does it feel when someone makes your eyes blurry for a day -____-

Optimax offers 4 methods to do this lasik/lasek things. The result is all the same, only, the risk are different, and the price is also wayy different. The price is around rm1700-rm4000 each eyes. The first and second method are usually for person with thin cornea.The third and the forth is for person with thick cornea, only if they had choose these method, the second time they want to do lasik again, they can't choose these method for the second time. Yes, there will be second time if you don't love your eyes the way they should be loved. hahah. Optimax offers lifetime guarantee that if I ever have an astigmatism again, I can do it for free at the same branch. that's the benefit of Optimax ;)

So, They give me informations, the risk that I should take and what will results after the surgery. We discuss about my condition and they suggest the best laser treatment for my eyes. of course they suggest the first method which cost  rm4000 per eyes. But they say I can also use the cheapest one as my cornea is thick and my power is not that high.

The Operation day. I waited for almost an hour for my turn, eventhough I already had an appointment -___- I wasn't thinking about afraid or whatsoever at first. Until they called me to change to operation clothes. The changing room was cold! with operation clothes, and I, for making it more dramatic, had flu on that day. pfftt. There were me, and this one lady waiting for our turn. the nurse(?) who accompany us was a bit friendly, and chatty. hahah. She told that lady "don't worry, it'll be okay, giving birth is more painful than this". At that moment, I, started to worry and freak out T.T. diorang takpela, dah pengalaman beranak, aku?? *nangis*

That lady go in first. she had to do the first expensive method because her cornea is thin, I come to a conclusion it's because she use contact lens for a long time. lucky that I choose to do lasik rather than continue contact lens-ing. *sedapkan hati sendiri. And then the doctor comes to check on me and she gaves anesthetic on my eyes. She's a muslim and I feel a bit relief. Not that I being racist or what (it seems racist is a sensitive words nowadays, no?), but I prefer muslim as she'll recite 'bismillah' before begins the procedure.

As I walked into the operation room, I panicked. They asked me to lay on operation table. the nice nurse hold my hands as she knew what i felt. lol. And the procedure begins. I have to warn you ; YOU'LL SEE THE WHOLE PROCEDURE!!. because it was your eyes we're talking about. haha. but the procedure was fast. really fast. I remembered having to look to the red light and have to try your best to stay! in a second you'll experience darkness but keep on looking there, and after you can see again, it'll be blurry. and you saw the doctor wipe your eyes with stick, but of course you don't feel anything lah. and then they move to another eyes, you have to keep your eyes both open the whole procedure, so this will be the hardest part.

Not to worry about you closing your eyes while the procedure begins, because they'll stick your eyelashes with I-don't-know-what's-that. I remember almost giving up closing my eyes, but I can't close because the eyelid is wide open and there's ring in your eyes. The only pain I feel is when they place the ring in your eyes to make your cornea comes out. there's pressure at the moment. And Alhamdulillah, all went well. Congrats to me who can stay still for about 10 minutes with the help of the kind nurse touch. she hold my hand the whole procedure!

5 to 10 minutes after the operation, I didn't feel watery eyes or anything as they say it would. I just feel dry eyes. right after I'm in the car the eyes start watery. It's annoying, I can't open my eyes, all I want to do is lay down. the doctor told me to just close my eyes 3 to 4 hours after the operation.I did, but it didn't stop wateryyy. everytime I tried to open my eyes, it's like there's waterfall burst from my eyes(exaggerated). it went on and on until finally I slept out of exhaustion. mad! It's so annoying that I, at that moment, regret doing lasik. IF I KNEW I HAVE TO FACE THIS I RATHER WEAR LENS MY ENTIRE LIFE! (and giving birth is more painful the lady said. tsk)

I woke up that evening, the eyes stop watery. And that moment I, alhamdulillah, see clearly. OMG. it's like I've been birth again(exaggerated). lol. seriously, I prayed zuhur and thanks Allah for these second chance He gaves me. Dulu pernah jugak beranganangan "kan best kalau bangun tidur je boleh tengok jelas", now it's dream comes true. That night, daddy asked us to dine out. at first I worried, I might experience dazzle with the night light and cars(the side effects), but to my surprise i didn't. one thing you must know the side effect for everyone is different. But still, I used shades while driving at night for protection. haha. and yes, carrots and tomatoes are my daily supplement!

There's no medication after these lasik treatment. they gave pain killer just in case though. Only you have to use eye drops for every two hours for a weeks. And also antibiotics eye drops 4times/day. and follow check up after a day, a week, a month and three month after. and yearly. so whenever you get mins again, they'll know and you can do lasik again. Well, I might need to think about that, I hope I won't.

So, these is my lasik experience. Not that I write for a competition or what, just that I get a lot of questions and I hope this will answer. If you guys interested on doing lasik too, feel free to call your nearer Optimax Centre :
I hope this post gives you something. I wrote this wearing shades okay. A week sleeping with eyes shield, wearing shades in the morning, night, while watching TV, can't fell anymore P.Diddy than that. lol.
Till next post, bye~

Monday, April 8, 2013

The Famous Meatball.

Thanks to some ridiculous people who decided to tell the world IKEA is a non-halal place to eat, I got idea for my fast-breaking menu today. hew. yes, the famous meatball! :D

  • 1 ulas bawang besar kuning (diced)
  • 1 biji tomato (diced)
  • 1/2 cawan susu segar
  • 3 sudu mentega (ganti dengan minyak jagung, lebih sihat)
  • 2 sudu tepung gandum
  • 1 cawan air
  • 2 sudu sos tiram
  • 3 sudu kicap manis
  • 1/2 sudu serbuk lada hitam
  • gula dan garam secukup rasa
  • kiub pati ayam
nota : kacau sekerap mungkin, mengelakkan sos dari berketul-ketul

  • Tumiskan sebentar bawang besar kuning dengan sedikit minyak jagung. Tumiskan sekali tomato bersama-sama bawang besar tadi.
  • Dan layu, angkat dan letak dalam pinggan.
  • Dalam kuali yang sama, tuangkan sedikit minyak jangung, masukkan tepung gandum dan goreng hingga warna bertukar coklat (api sederhana).
  • Masukkan air dan susu segar, biar mendidih sebentar.
  • Masukkan pula kiub pati ayam, sos tiram, kicap, gula, garam dan lada hitam. Biar mendidih lagi.
  • Akhir sekali, masukkan bawang dan tomato yang telah ditumis tadi.
nota: sebab nak betul-betul macam meatball ikea, saya blend sos yang dah siap tadi hingga halus. rasa semua bahan bersatu dengan sedapnya.

found the recipe on internet. and I am so excited to try it.
cooked it with meatball, fries and strawberry jam. tadaaa~~

btw, it was International IKEA that sold pork inside their meal. tak baik tuduh2 fitnah periuk nasi orang.
It's obviously meatball that comes from COW and the sauce and the strawberry jam. and the fries.
Tapi kalau waswas takpayah la pergi makan, kempunan sorangsorang, kesah pulak aku. lol.
Or you can give this a try. senang je kan?

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Freak Out

Hye! March is almost come to an end. I've been busy enjoying my favourite month of the year!(alasan).
It's been a while. and yet, you guys didn't give up on my blog! *terharu.
I remember shutting down this site for 2 or 3 weeks kot. hee. Blame the laziness I sow over the holiday, we grew fat together. K T.T

So, my penggelaran date is set to 17th of April. Finally. They wanted to set on 24th of April at first, then I kindda force my friend to slow talk with them to make it a bit earlier. Because we will have SPA interview somewhere in the end of April. Ok, freak out sekarang. And it turns out our dean also had plan in the end of april, so yeay, they make it a week earlier.

I'm not too stress about what I'm gonna wear during my penggelaran eventhought the date is set within a month! Short notice kunun. Because the first thing I did when I finished that day, was design my baju penggelaran. lol. taklah, it's because I don't have peplum kurung, and I'm dying to try to wear one, so I design one(why am I even explain). Tapi taklah cantik mana, me so damn sure my Indonesian friend will overdressed me. Apesal macam simple sangat design baju ni. argh, sila freak out sekarang.

I don't know why am I so relax until I realized, I have no tudung or selendang or jilbab to match the kurung. Damn it. That's when I googled online hijab shop. And to my surprise(NOT) the colours that I want is all SOLD OUT. hoi, colour ni trend ke hapee. I am so desperate, I even mail few of them asking "tudung warna ni dah takde ke? tak nak restock ek? tak kesian ke I xde tudung matching ni. *icon nangis*" and they proudly reply "sorry sis, kitorang tak restock dah. kalau nak, kene tunggu yang baru, design baru" FREAK OUT SEKARANG!!

luckily the under garment don't have to match, so we skipped those part. SHOES!! I confidently knew I have few heels to match the kurung. If you don't know I roughly own 10 heels and wedges. It wasn't a hobby or what, it's the SALE. damnyuh Surabaya, look what you did to me. and my pocket money. oh, I miss shopping in Surabaya! So, I thought I have heels that matched the kurung, oh well, I have. But I want a new one! because I miss shopping in Surabaya. lol. we'll see about that *check wallet sambil purapura freak out*

Then mummy asked, "dah book tiket ke belum?" "tiket balik je dah. Tiket pergi takde promo" then baru nak bukak airasia and tiger airways. apesal MAS stop flight KL-SUB. now we have not that much choice. To my surprise(NOT) again, there's no promo if it's within a month. ohemgee, ohemgee *FREAK OUT!*. Lucky for me, it's gonna be only mummy, daddy and me. And mummy trust me on her credit card. So, mak, mahal sikit takpe kan. sikitt jee. I confidently sure when i already paid, all that left for mummy to do is bebel. hee.

Now, the only thing I freaked out the most is actually the after penggelaran life I'm gonna live.
No more Khadat, no more Ros, no more Keshy, no more Fit, no more Shisty. Me. probably on my own. making new friends, new scandal, new mistakes, new experience, new life. This is the part where I hate new *sigh. The more I think about it, the more freak out I am. ish, tapi nak kerja, nak duit. mihmihmih.

This is a long comeback, no? ;)
So I guess I'll write whenever I freak out. that's the perfect timing for my mind to utter the thought into words. and my finger is in their best mood to dance. lol.
have a good week y'all.
stay aca-wesome ;)
Night ♥

Saturday, February 2, 2013


So, this is it. I've been insomnia for almost a week now. Only tonight, the heart beats peacefully :) but why can't I sleep well tonight?? T.T

Had my Yudisium yesterday. My very last yudisium. It changes everything. I am now officially graduated from medical school!! Alhamdulillah, all praise to Allah :) It was one funny moments though,we all laugh through the ceremony.
I'm happy for myself. I wanted to say I'm proud,but I'm not :( .I work hard to get to where I am right now. But somehow deep inside I can't erase the frustration I felt because I knew if I do better, I suceed long time ago. Tipulah kalau xde rasa camtu kan. Trust me, jadi dokter tu tak senang.

But then I remember this all happened with Allah's will. It felt wrong to feel frust when I know no matter how hard I tried, if Allah said it wasn't my time yet, I will still be on hold. Because again, Allah's plan is always better than mine. I know it's hard. It does feel unfair. One by one of us left. We feel loser at times. Tapikan kita percaya dengan rukun iman yg ke6. Percaya pada qada' dan qadarNya. Janji Allah itu pasti. Have faith in Him, you'll be surprise with the miracle that could happen.

Dear friends and reader, whenever you fel like giving up, don't give up! You guys almost reach the finish line. Takde beza pun yg dah lulus dulu dengan lambat. We all will get there eventually.
I got so many "bestnye dah habis dulu" today. Padahal I am the last kot from my sunshine and my wingman. Hence, I can't sleep and come out with this post. Lol.

But don't get me wrong. I am so grateful with what I have. My sunshine and my wingman is the greatest miracle that ever happened to me. Not once they make me felt like I was left behind. For them, I still stand and live through the end. No one will ever put up with such stubborn selfish emotional me like they do. Many left though. But not them. Everyday they remind me I'm better than what I thought I am. Again all praise to Allah for giving me the best people to lend on.

So i guess this is the last post from Surabaya :) 
This is how it felt. No returns tix! 
Good Night ♡

Sent from Samsung Galaxy Note

Wednesday, January 30, 2013


A: Saffy, hari ni jom pi kenny's mahu?
S : Aku baru je makan kenny's semalam. nak termuntah kekenyangan.
A : Ooo, makan sorang2. Pfftt
S : Aku pergi dengan Sisty la, dia first time try.
A : Alalala. kesian nyee. hahaha. jap aku tanya diorang dulu
S : Nanti muka aku lama2 jadi macam roasted chicken tuu.
A : Takpe, hot chick
S : -_______-

Monday, January 28, 2013

Memory lane #1

Hello Final week!
I don't know why I feel like doing this, but well, I'm writing this.
And I'm gonna start with my Medical life.

It's started 5years ago. Somewhere after my Matriculation result comes out.
Back then I have to choose between two University. Local(which is just a kilometer away from my house), and well, Indonesia. It's weird though, I picked Indonesia. When my friend asked why, here are my answer;
"Alang2 kalau nak pergi jauh, baik pergi jauhhhh terus" yes, it is FAR FAR AWAY. the answer is kindda out of topic, my friend thought I'm crazy! haha. but then I thought, it will give me new experience kan? new culture and all(jawapan poyo. haha), why not give it a try. Without really worried about the course. I am taking medicine kot! Dad asked me to give it another thought, he said, I am more like 'Pharmacy' person. I didn't get why he is so worried (we'll get to that later). I remembered the most famous question everyone eager to know is; "Why do you want to be a doctor?" note to everyone who's planning to take medicine, you have HAVE to have answer for answer that moment? ; "It's because I love to take challenge in life" Frankly, I don't even know what that's supposed to mean. I might hear or read it somewhere, so I use it as my answer. lolz. I'm dead.

First year of medical school. I had so much fun on our first semester, I don't feel like I'm taking medicine. seriously. The fact that Indonesian student didn't have a-level, matriculation and all make it a bit easier for me. well, not too easy I'd get 4flat la kan. haha. first sem basically repeating matriculation. But we have to learn on Indonesian history(of course) and I(we) always use communication issues as an excuse. haha. I remember writting down "Ustazah, maaf, saya dari Malaysia, saya tak paham soalan. maaf, ayat terabur" on my answer paper. serious shit. HAHAHAHA. And that, was what our senior teach us! some of us even drew our national flag on answer sheet. gila. and the best part is; WE SCORED! hahaha(i can't stop laughing remembering this). but then, we don't teach our junior the same. lol. no i'm serius. the chain broke here. kahkahkah :P after all, who said medic was though, right? hahaha. baru first semm. We enjoyed ourself so hard, i remember spend time in shopping mall more than at home!

And then there's anatomy on second semester. Anatomy is one of the hardest subject that I struggle so hard and still, I couldn't make it. maybe I didn't have a good luck on mcq paper too, and it worsen the result. I remember crying to my friend asking am I in the right path. a friend of us did quit in 2nd semester! and I continue trying my best & I settled on passing the paper. Only pass, not excellent. That was the hardest moment of all my medical year.

Second year of medical school. Our very first yudisium is in 3rd semester. That was the scariest yudisium i ever been in. I prepared myself. I even thought, if I didn't pass this, that's it. I'm done being a doctor, maybe that god's sign for me to quit now. choose different path. I was so miserable trying to hold it all together. And then, miracle happen. I passed! I sat down crying when they close the door. I remember that moment. I knew most of my friend didn't think I'll make it. so we all are in shocked. one of my friend did come to me said "dah lulus tu bersyukur" I don't know what he meant by that. But what I know is this is it. There's no turning back. I want a sign, god give me one. No more giving up. I do want to start fresh. dah terlambat sebenarnye dah 3 semester terlepas kot.

Third year of medical school. I can't remember any important moment though. maybe this is where my drama life come to climax, my medical life has nothing to do with it. hahah. we'll get to that story in other post. So basically, as insaf as I am after my very first yudisium, we did skipped class though. ishk. we only went to lecture once a week giving excuse we'd better off studying on our own. ish, sombong Malaysian student nih. but seriously, if we went to the lecture, we end up sleeping or listening to the music on our phone. The only moment we serious is when in lab. sebab wajib hadir. haha. My second yudisium is in 5th sem. It went according to plan. everyone passed. Alhamdulillah.

Forth year of medical school. Things get better. We don't have to take short sem. we dropped short sem & went to Australia! and Singapore later on. It was a good life. I did become fat then too. hahah. Senior claims that the more senior we are, the harder life we gonna face. but maybe at the time, we already learn the rhythm and by my wingman besides, I am as stronger as a person can be. That's when I create this blog and deleted the old one. We passed our Sarjana Kedokteran, Wisuda together and starts our Dokter Muda life in Rumah Sakit Umum Daerah Dokter Soetomo (RSUD Dr. Soetomo).

My Fifth year of medical school, is the best! I really really lived in my fifth year. I gain so many things! Ilmu, friendship, enemy(haha), and the best part of all, gaining life's lesson the hard way! People start pointing me as Dokter, I get to team up with PPDS (registra, the doctor who learn to be specialist), getting trust from the nurse while on call in the ward. Treat the patient, telling them how to live life. haha. It was the best part. gaining people trust the easy way, the patient really do trust you without a doubt. It is a little scary sometimes. and I don't know where I get the confident. but most of the time my answer was " bentar ya bu, ntar saya konsul ke senior saya"  haha. Noobish!

It was a great experience! I remember everytime I changed lab from one to another, I want to specialist in all of them. hahah. when I was little, it was surgery. My friends(high school & primary) surely knew whenever I wrote a biodata, it'll be "pakar bedah". I decided it from standard 2(8years old). i never once change my "citacita" haha. I surely do dream big kan? entering medical school, the one lab I want to avoid apparently is Surgery! But I can't deny the fact that the coolest doctors are majoring in surgery. the 'gatal'est pun ye jugak. maybe I can get a husband from that department, hehe, but majoring in surgery is a big NO for me. hahah. and that's when I decided I want OBGYN. there's operation in obgyn too what. hahah. but when I enter Kulit department, I want to specialist in Kulit so I'll reduce money on beauty clinic. hahah. But my favourite subject is Anestesi! I love PPGD (First aid life support?) hee. and our teaching is the coolest PPDS jugak. So I want to major anest. gagag. But I always hate the fact that, day by day, I lose my sleep to my patient. It's tiring tahu tak. I have to start taking caffein( I am so NOT nescafe person) but I always demand a mocca every after shift morning. That's when my innocent patient comes and say " terima kasih dokter" or even "selamat pagi dokter". the best feeling.

If ever I have chance to do this life again, I'd choose to live only in my fifth year. hahah, jk, I'd probably say I won't. It changes me a lot. in a good way, and bad, of course. I always want this to end, I forgot it'll end everything. At this point of my life, I started to imagine this is what i'm gonna do for the rest of my life! and the worst part is, without my wingman or my sunshine.I remember running to either one when life gets so tough. I don't know how it's gonna be later on. Maybe then, I'll get married and i'm gonna run to my husband la pulak kan. hahah. ok, menggeliat tulis macamni.

It was a long post! maybe if I cut the crapped, it'll be half of it. haha. eventhough no one gonna read every detail of it, future me will. hee. maybe then I'll laugh my arse off reading some noob post from a noob young doctor who just about to starts her real doctor's life. It's this friday. The final yudisium. I wish things goes to plan this time, but dear god, if ever your plan is greater than mine, redhakanlah aku dengan ketentuanMu :)

Till the next post. XOxo

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Ku coba meraih mimpi, kau coba tuk hentikan mimpi.

Sendiri, sendiri ku diam, diam dan merenung
Merenungkan jalan yang kan membawaku pergi
Pergi tuk menjauh, menjauh darimu
Darimu yang mulai berhenti
Berhenti mencoba, mencoba bertahan
Bertahan untuk terus bersamaku

Ku berlari kau terdiam
Ku menangis kau tersenyum
Ku berduka kau bahagia
Ku pergi kau kembali 

Ku coba meraih mimpi
Kau coba ‘tuk hentikan mimpi
Memang kita takkan menyatu

Bayangkan.. bayangkan ku hilang, hilang tak kembali
Kembali untuk mempertanyakan lagi cinta
Cintamu yang mungkin, mungkin tak berarti
Berarti untuk ku rindukan

Ku berlari kau terdiam
Ku menangis kau tersenyum
Ku berduka kau bahagia
Ku pergi kau kembali

Ku coba meraih mimpi
Kau coba ‘tuk hentikan mimpi
Memang kita takkan menyatu

Ini harusnya kita coba saling melupakan 
Lupakan kita pernah bersama

Suara dia sumpah seksi angat. Ha haa.
And this song is my lullaby for what now?a week? Yes,a week. I managed to skip a week! Whew.
Abusing replay button until I fall asleep.
Night ♥

Friday, January 11, 2013

Dua Kosong Satu Tiga

So, this is the first post of 2013! without saying goodbye to 2012. hew. 2012 was such a pain because I can't completed the very first resolution on the list. So 2013 is the time to show off to 2012 that I can do better. ha ha.
And well, while writing this, I'm officially jobless. You guys know what that means? Yes baby, it means i'm done :) Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah, through all those hard time, I always have Faith that your timing is the best. Always. sooner or later, it'll pay off. and trust me, you guys don't know how blissful this relief feels like. Again, Alhamdulillah. It is a great way to start 2013 though ;)

Guess who's here to hug me when I say "Alhamdulillah, I did it!" my wingman's here. I barely cried, but well, it's not yudisium yet, so i might just hold it there. not yet Saffy, not yet.
My wingman's here for their "angkat sumpah dokter". The first batch is on the16th of January. I missed it by 6 days because I can't force yudisium to be earlier than pelantikan because I have nothing to offer. and guess what? I'm done being sad about it :( so my angkat sumpah will be somewhere around April. In sha Allah.

Now what's the plan? what's the plan? I have no plan because I still have to stay until the yudisium date is out. I have to clear out the house before February, so I hope, yudisium would be earlier than that. pfftt. It's pain in the arse because you always will be the minority. you can't do anything about it because you are your daddy's daughter and your daddy is not someone important here. May this be the last pain I have to deal with. Amin.

I have a lot to write, but I am speechless. Feels like it just yesterday I cried my heart out, and today, I survived it. If this is a dream, just don't wake me up. Leulz. It's funny though when I get to talk with my wingman, all I can say is "korang tengokla ape yang korang tinggalkan kat aku" and all they can say while laughing is "Hahaha, we're sorry we leave you aloine". And it's over. My sisters is coming on the very 16th of January too. So I guess I have something to kill the time though while waiting for yudisium. Anyone else want to be my company? you're welcome. but money is on you. because apparently the longer I'm here, the more money I need to satisfied my need. darn. hehs.

Have a bless 2013 everyone!
May Allah ease our way, to be a better person, to get closer to Him :)
In sha Allah.